A Mother's Heart

One of the most precious gifts a mother receives is her children, as stated many times in the bible children are gifts from god. A mother is the first to bond with her children and is the first one to say I will die for this child. As Jesus died for his children. We are to train our children and show them the right path to take and as they grow old pray that they will no go astray.We are to teach them morals and values, and instill in them they can do anything they put their mind to. You know there are people (adults) out there that will try to tare down everything you have instilled in your child and you have to reassure them they are doing right and can do anything.
Moving from Alabama was not a mistake for me and my family but will soon show trouble with my children. My children are athletic and always have been but the move here started showing them different. Cody has been a ball player since he was 2 and I cant get him to stop. Now I am not saying he is the best player out there but the kid can play some ball. One day before practice he came through the door from school crying saying he was not going back to ball. As a mother my heart broke because I knew this is where he wanted to be. So I had to stand up and call the coach out on what he was doing. We have people that takes roles of coaches and teachers that will make your child fill useless in a sec. You as a parent has to stand up and remember God gave you this gift, this precious little flower and even though storms come and try to kill it off we have to protect it and just keep nurturing and pouring all your love into it. As Cody reached Middle school he tried out for the baseball team and was rejected once again. Now came the hard part listening to him sob and question me as to why I moved him from Alabama where the coaches were fair. Once again my motherly instinct kicked in all I could do is comfort him and teach him we moved here for a reason and it wasn't baseball. He got over it, lived and come back the next year to try out again and made the team.
I say all this for one reason. My oldest child Jasmine even is one who encourages her peers and tells them they can do it.
Children are gifts and we must show them the love and support they deserve. If you are a parent, teacher, coach or just a figure in the community chose your words wisely. Take time out with the younger generation and show them they can do anything they set out to do. You don't know what kind of home a child comes from so you must start doing what is right.We must invest into our future and if we are always putting them down by stereo typing them we will never move forward. So start today and love a child they are the most precious gifts we have.

Playing the hand that was given to you

First I want to say God is good and this blog is by no means wrote to put anyone down or bring shame to them but to uplift how mighty my God is.As I give you just a little insight of my book I would love for the comments to come in.
In the bible it says that God knew us before we were born. When you see that maybe the first thing to your mind is well if that is true then how did my life go so wrong. Correction nothing about your life is wrong everything is for a reason. I started looking at things in a whole new way. Instead of saying why did that happen I say thank you lord for giving me the challange you have becouse someone out there could not handle it.
My life as a child was not great some people could even look at it and say how did u overcome that. Well at an early age my mom and dad were divorced which led to step parents which led to abuse ( not the spanking every child deserves) as a young child I was introduced to a man trying to take my moms life. After that divorce my older brother stepped in and took the father role which was the best thing that could happen to me and my sister at the time.
As a teenager mom remarried when I was 15 by the age of 17 I was out on the street with no place to go. I know you all are thinking how could anyone do this? This thought consumed me from the age of 17-30 yes along time, but my God took me and conforted me the whole time watching out for his little girl. I have come to terms with what happened and was able to tell her thank you for what you did for me.
As an adult my brother (father) decided to make some choices that I wanted nothing to do with so for 7 years I did not associate with him. I thought I was better then him when in all we came from the same momma,grew up the same way, I was blinded and selfish to what he needed and that was just alittle love. In Febuary of last year me and him was able to put aside our differances and I had the oppertunity to tell him I was sorry for what I did. I jetted on him when he needed me the most. Putting aside our differances and becoming family again but for a short time Jesus took him home in May. This had to be the hardest for me. I was mad a god for what he had took from me. I am thankful that my Jesus is a forgiving Jesus for I was being selfish I wanted him here with me not knowing what lay ahead of him. Maybe something he could not handel we will never know. Over the summer I found out I had a step sister well she is supposed to be step. Finding her was in a way opening up more of the past, we found out things that did not add up and still have questions that we will never find answers to. I say supposed to be half but we look like twins. Maybe one day we will find out the answer to that part of the puzzel.
I go through all of this to say f Jesus can do it for me he can do it for you to. No you have you own life and things that happened but if you hold on to those things then you are not living they are controlling you. Take time to get all the good and bad out you system. For my whole life I let things that happened consume my brain and was not living as Christy Howell I was living as as abused child, one that was rejected, nothing was good enough, faliar, just all around shame to be with. My Jesus took all of that away from me and will do the same for you. Remember he loves you the way you are and he is the only one that can change you from the inside out. He is a great God.
I challange you to read Deuteronomy 30......
Remember I want some comments what u think about this. I love you all and Jesus does to.

Shut Your Mouth

The title may sound harsh but it is what we all have to do at times. God has put people in my life the past couple of weeks to minister to and as I was going through my studies yesterday and praying for these people I was led to this.
We are all blessed in many ways but do not want to settle for what God has given us we always want more rather it be money, promotion at work or even another job. We look at other people who are having their prayers answered and ask well where is mine or maybe you have gotton to the point of questioning Why am I giving my all to God and my prayers not being answered? I study, pray, give of my time, praise him, worship him, and bring my tithes to the store house. Stop the words out of your mouth is your own curse. That job you wanted wasnt yours but someone else's, the promotion wasnt yours maybe this isnt the place you are supposed to be in. Take a look at where God has brought you from and be thankful. To be thankful for the small stuff will allow God to open bigger doors and raise you higher. When we show apperciation in the small stuff God knows we will apperciate the larger blessings as well...
Our mouth gets in trouble and also curses our blessings.. How can God give us more if we are not giving him our all. You think you giving him pure praise when you are moning about what he hasnt dont for you. He wants us to have faith in him and give him our all and if we are complaing all the time we are not giving him our all. He dosent want half a sacrifice or a half harted praise but whole harted...God wants to bless us in so many ways but the words out of our mouth is our problem... Watch what you say, be happy with what you have been given,and remember you to are worthy of all the blessings he has for us. Praise him for what you do have and better things will come to you...

I ask you all to walk through your day thanking god for you job ( it might not be where you want to be) thanks him for giving you life and waking you up this morning. Thank him for the small stuff and watch what happens.

Feel free to leave comments.I love you all
Study Malachi

Always with you

When the road seems like there is no end,
Look up and I am with you.
When it seems like there is no one there to listen to you,
Talk to me I am always with you.
When you feel like you do not have the strength to go foward,
Lean on me and I will give you the strength you need.
When it seem like your world is full of darkness,
I will be all the light you need.
When you feel like you are in a war that will never end
I am with you in your time of battles and you will be stronger after.
What ever the day brings you just remember what you have come out of and where you want to be. Keep you eyes on the prize and get your strength from your God. Remember you are never alone in what ever you do.

It is time to move foward

We must let go and let God take control of the wheel. There is a reason you have come to this blog today. God’s timing is right for your life. You have to go through preparations before coming out. Know you are reveled at the right time and this is you time to come out.

You can change what the world says about how you should live. Find yourself in the list below and make a commitment to it.

　

Grew up being abused………………………………... You don’t have to be an abuser!

Grew up with an alcoholic or drug abuse home ……………………….You don’t have to turn to the trap of alcohol or drugs!

Grew up with out a dad ………………………………......................... Don’t fall for every guy that tells you he loves you!

Grew up in poverty………………………………............................. You deserve better then what you have now.

Grew up watching you mother being abused …………………………… You will be a bigger person and walk away from it!

　

Grew up with a teenage mom ………………………………....... You don’t have to fall into the trap!

Grew up in a family that was bound with depression………….. You can break the cycle!

Grew up in a family of obesity ……………………………….... You can loose the weight!

We are all better then what the world says and gives us credit for.

Start taking off the layers of emotions that you are hiding under. You are loved and no matter what you have been through in life you will prevail. What the love of God has for us is bigger then anything that comes against us. He loved me enough to bring me through a lot of junk and he will bring you through also. Remember people will love you when you are on top but as soon as you fall down or start to change they will turn their back. Remember if you come across one of these people you do not need them anyway. Our God is a loving God that is always with you what ever you go through. No matter how low you get he will be there for you to pick you up again and give you a second chance.
We learn not to talk about the stuff people did to us and start living under alchool, drugs, or even medication but you don't have to just let it go.Maybe it is the loss of a loved one and you are still balming God for their death look at the bright side of thing you will see them again. Live your life as you know they would want you to live. Ask your self would they want me doing all of this stuff I know is wrong or would they want better for me. When we learn we are better then that and have a father (Jesus) he will be all the drug we need to hide our pain, guilt, anger and even shame.

How we view our self is a reflection of how we were raised and treated growing up. If you were treated as you were unworthy or it seemed like no one ever had time for you then you will have a self image problem until you face that demon at once. How can we change this world and the way our young people deal with the pains of this world if we don't know how to deal with it as adults.

Once we fall truly in love with God we will be able to love our self and then be able to love other people like we are supposed to. The first step is to forgive those who wronged you.