First I want to say God is good and this blog is by no means wrote to put anyone down or bring shame to them but to uplift how mighty my God is.As I give you just a little insight of my book I would love for the comments to come in.
In the bible it says that God knew us before we were born. When you see that maybe the first thing to your mind is well if that is true then how did my life go so wrong. Correction nothing about your life is wrong everything is for a reason. I started looking at things in a whole new way. Instead of saying why did that happen I say thank you lord for giving me the challange you have becouse someone out there could not handle it.
My life as a child was not great some people could even look at it and say how did u overcome that. Well at an early age my mom and dad were divorced which led to step parents which led to abuse ( not the spanking every child deserves) as a young child I was introduced to a man trying to take my moms life. After that divorce my older brother stepped in and took the father role which was the best thing that could happen to me and my sister at the time.
As a teenager mom remarried when I was 15 by the age of 17 I was out on the street with no place to go. I know you all are thinking how could anyone do this? This thought consumed me from the age of 17-30 yes along time, but my God took me and conforted me the whole time watching out for his little girl. I have come to terms with what happened and was able to tell her thank you for what you did for me.
As an adult my brother (father) decided to make some choices that I wanted nothing to do with so for 7 years I did not associate with him. I thought I was better then him when in all we came from the same momma,grew up the same way, I was blinded and selfish to what he needed and that was just alittle love. In Febuary of last year me and him was able to put aside our differances and I had the oppertunity to tell him I was sorry for what I did. I jetted on him when he needed me the most. Putting aside our differances and becoming family again but for a short time Jesus took him home in May. This had to be the hardest for me. I was mad a god for what he had took from me. I am thankful that my Jesus is a forgiving Jesus for I was being selfish I wanted him here with me not knowing what lay ahead of him. Maybe something he could not handel we will never know. Over the summer I found out I had a step sister well she is supposed to be step. Finding her was in a way opening up more of the past, we found out things that did not add up and still have questions that we will never find answers to. I say supposed to be half but we look like twins. Maybe one day we will find out the answer to that part of the puzzel.
I go through all of this to say f Jesus can do it for me he can do it for you to. No you have you own life and things that happened but if you hold on to those things then you are not living they are controlling you. Take time to get all the good and bad out you system. For my whole life I let things that happened consume my brain and was not living as Christy Howell I was living as as abused child, one that was rejected, nothing was good enough, faliar, just all around shame to be with. My Jesus took all of that away from me and will do the same for you. Remember he loves you the way you are and he is the only one that can change you from the inside out. He is a great God.
I challange you to read Deuteronomy 30......
Remember I want some comments what u think about this. I love you all and Jesus does to.
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